What just happened? All hasn't sunk in yet... Who would've thunk? A sudden round of layoff... And thank goodness, I'm not affected, or at least for now and for the next six months and hopefully a few more beyond.
Shouting from inside that I needed to move on, blaming my inability to take the change on the circumstance that I have absolutely no control over, or maybe just unconsciously waiting for something or someone makes the final decision for me - that was then. Now there it comes. I feel the rush, the urge, but weirdly, not the fear.
I never prayed. The best I thought I could do in that department was to keep my hopes alive and cross my fingers, and perhaps toes as well. So I'm keeping them crossed. Well, maybe I can even throw in a prayer or two at bedtime. Dear whoever, let it all played out well... let it all played out well.